Still hoping to be a mommy

So far I’m not doing a good job of writing in here am I?

I hardly know what to write at this point though - we have such a long wait ahead! We haven’t even had a LID for a full month yet!

I try not to think about it too much, I’m too afraid it will never happen and I will never be a parent.

But other times I can’t help but think about it and imagine what it will be like to be a mommy.

And its not as if I don’t have plenty to do to keep me busy, but sometimes it is still hard to be motivated when there are so many unknowns in this process. I think if I knew for certain that the wait would be x number of months I could plan better.

Anyone else out there waiting too? How are you getting through it?